Mickey's Miracle-5/7/11

This was the first day that Mickey was awake and himself the whole day. He was still asking to go home and only cried about it once. I was so happy because he still didn't have a voice and seeing your child cry and not make a sound is just awful. He was such a trooper!

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Andrew and Mickey, just before we switched places.

Saturday, he was asking for chocolate pancakes with chocolate glitter. I eventually figured out that he wanted whipped cream in a can and chocolate sprinkles on his pancakes. Unfortunately by the time he was cleared to eat, it was past breakfast time. He also kept asking to go home. To keep him occupied, I created a racetrack on his tray table with the tape they use to mark the IV lines. He also got to watch TV which was great because it helped to distract him from wanting to get out of bed.

Putting his oxygen back on all by himself.

Andrew headed out in the early evening to get some "man food" and I charged him with getting Mickey some crayons, a coloring book, whipped cream and chocolate sprinkles! It took him a few hours because the local place he knew about was under construction but he did it!

Playing with his monster trucks & cars from the Child Love group at Doernbecher's.

I slept with Mickey that night because Andrew’s back just couldn't handle it. Mickey said, “Let’s just talk for a little while, okay Mom?”. I instantly agreed and he told me how much he loved space and the stars and sky. Then he said that he loved home and his backyard and his play ground and his slide. I was so happy that he couldn't remember but a little freaked out and didn’t sleep well at all.

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Here's my Facebook note from that morning.

Mickey's breathing tube was removed last night and he's slowly being weaned off some of the drugs he's on. He is back! He's asking to go home and he's doing so well! He had a fever last night but it broke this morning. They did a chest x-ray a little while ago just to check. He's had some injury to his neck and the doctor said that he'd have to wear a collar when we take him home. I told her I was just so thrilled that we get to take him home. We'd prefer no visitors for him (please come see us if you want!) because he gets upset when people leave when he's perfectly healthy. We love you all so much and are so very grateful for the massive love and thousands of prayers that have been sent to help heal our child and bring him back to us. There are no words to convey how thankful I am for this. Thank you from the very depth of my soul! Thank you!

Two more days left to blog and then a quick wrap up. Thanks so much for sticking with me, getting this all out is helping so much! <3

Mickey's Miracle-5/6/11

Here's what happened on Friday. There are some more pics of Mickey hooked up to lines and tubes. He's sedated in the first one but mainly just asleep in the second one and you can really see the difference in his face. He just looks so much more normal. Oh, and I decided to change the post title to Mickey's Miracle instead of Mickey's Accident. It just seems more fitting. :)

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Friday, at four in the morning, they started to rewarm him and take him off some of the drugs. He woke up a few times during that process and he looked around then he looked right at me and mouthed "Ma-ma"! I was so happy to see that recognition in his eyes. He was still pretty out of it and would thrash around and kept trying to take his tube out and pull on all his lines. Andrew and I took turns calming him down.

He had an MRI scheduled for that afternoon and I got a shower! It took quite a while and they ended up having to sedate him again. Once that was done they said he could be extubated (remove the tube that was helping him breath) but we had to wait for the results of the MRI because they wanted to know if they could remove his neck collar safely. There was some concern about possibly needing to re-intubate him as the tube used was a bit too big for him and they were afraid that if there was swelling once the larger tube was removed, he'd had trouble breathing.

When he was waiting to be extubated, he mouthed, "Hi, Mom" to me. I was so excited to see that as Mama is something that either a scared, drugged four year old would say or something that a damaged child might say. He also was mouthing "I want to go home" and once I thought he said "I'm scared". The doctors told us that they were cautiously optimistic that we'd be taking home a little boy who was the same as the one we had before. They did say that he'd probably go home with a neck brace and I told them that I was just happy they were talking about us taking him home.

My mom and step-dad came up and so I got to see Audrey and Mom came in to see Mickey. He woke up enough to recognize her and then went right back to sleep.

He was extubated very late that night and that was a little rough as we were waiting on the MRI results and they kept getting pushed back. It was about ten or eleven at night and we hadn't slept and we were exhausted. He also had a fever and they were a little concerned about pneumonia. We took turns sleeping with Mickey as he was pretty distraught and hooked up to quite a few things even without the breathing tube. Andrew was wonderful with Mickey and it was so good to see him relax with his Daddy. His breathing was very labored and he had to have oxygen that night. He could talk but only in a whisper. They weren't (and still aren't) sure if that was due to the overlarge tube or to the original incident. But, it wasn't worrying enough that they had to re-intubate him.
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So, that was Friday. All in all a good day. A day where I started to get less scared and more hopeful. I was still afraid that something bad was going to happen and all his progress would slip away though. Every time that started to happen and it started to overwhelm me, I'd slip out to the computers where on Facebook I could see all the people who were praying for him and I'd cry and feel so much better.

Mickey's Accident 5/5/11

Here's the account of our first full day at Doernbecher's PICU. There are some pictures of Little Man hooked up to all the machines and IV's and such. So, please don't feel you have to read it if that sort of thing will upset you.
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THURSDAY
It took a while to get Mickey's body temperature down to where they wanted it. It was actually about four in the morning before he reached the proper temperature. They started out with sedatives and then because his shivers kept his temp up they added muscle blockers. This period of time was so hard for us. We couldn't do much for him and we didn't know anything. We didn't know if he was still in there or how the accident had affected him. They wanted him as calm and quiet as possible during the cooling so while we could hold his hand, we weren't to stroke him or talk to him too much.

Later on Thursday, they hooked him up to an EEG. I was really upset when I learned that an EEG would be done so soon. I had thought it would be done after the cooling was complete and that we would have more time not knowing how he was. At that point, not knowing, though terrible and so very hard was better than knowing the worst. I was truly afraid that they would hook him up and all that we would see would be flat lines. I was so happy to see lines that I cried and finally admitted my fears of the EEG to Andrew. A few hours after they hooked up the EEG, Andrew left with a co-worker, Jim, to go get some things from home. I wanted my camera. I kept telling myself that as a scrapbooker and photo happy mom, I had thousands of pictures of Mickey. And every time I told myself that, I thought, "It's not enough". I told a nurse that I was having Andrew bring my camera and she asked if I was sure I wanted to remember this. I told her that I wanted to get the picture of the actual accident out of my head and I'd much rather remember this than that.

Mickey's neurologist came by to give us the results of the the EEG. Andrew was still gone so I stepped outside Mickey's room to talk to him alone. He told me the first really good news we had heard. He said that there was more there than he had expected there to be. He said that Mickey showed no sign of seizures (something they had been concerned about during the cooling down process), that his brain was showing normal sleep/wake patterns and that his cortex (the part of the brain that is most affected by lack of oxygen injuries) was responding to all the drugs in his system the way a normal, healthy cortex would. I was so happy that I flung myself on the neurologist and gave him a hug! I'm thinking neurologist's don't get hugged often as he looked startled and then a little pleased.

After that things just started getting better. Andrew came back and I told him the good news. I grabbed that camera and took pictures of our little guy and of the EEG readout. Then they took off the EEG stuff because they felt that he didn't need monitoring anymore.

We were still upset and worried about Mickey and his future but at least we had some good news. I asked our doctor if the worst option, that of not taking him home was off the table and she said that barring some unforseen incident it was!

I was also able to get on Facebook and let our friends and family know what was going on. Here's the note I posted.

For those of you who don't know, our son Mickey was involved in a freak accident that cut off oxygen to his brain. I revived him and he was Life Flighted to Dornbecher's. He is being chilled now to allow his brain time to heal and to prevent swelling. They will start to warm him and take him off some of the meds that are preventing him from moving at around four this morning.
We have had some encouraging news from the neurologist regarding his EEG and I believe that it was prayers and the amazing staff at Dornbecher's that are helping so much with that.
If you and everyone you know could pray for our Mickey, our son, we would be forever indebted. He is our light, he is my soul and we love him desperately.

The response from Facebook was amazing and beautiful. People from all over the world were now on our side, praying for our little guy. Whenever I felt like it was all too much to take and wanted to cry I would head out to the computers bring up Facebook and cry happy tears instead of sad.

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So that's it for Thursday. I'll be posting the rest of the stay over a few days. This is a really important event in our lives and I'm glad I'm able to record it here.

Mickey's Accident-5/4/11

Hey everyone, I've got the story of Mickey's accident written up below. The pictures are ones I took yesterday. I'll post about his hospital stay over the course of a few more posts. Writing this up and taking the pictures are a kind of therapy for me but I still think I'll need to see someone. I'm okay until night time when I'm trying to fall asleep. Then, all the worst pictures pop up in my mind. :( So, here's the story and if you don't want to read it, no worries. I'll have some fun scrappy stuff and kid stuff in a few days.

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It was the evening of Wednesday the 4th and Andrew and I had decided to take the kids to get ice cream. I grabbed a couple coupons and told Andrew that I needed to put some make up on. When I was done I stepped out our master slider to get the kids.

I saw Mickey on the slide and in an instant I realised what had happened. He had attached the dog leash to the play structure at the top of the slide and then put it around his own neck and either fell or tried to go down the slide on his own. He was on his belly, feet down. I screamed his name repeatedly and ran out to him. I pushed him back up the slide and then ran around to the steps to get up to him. When I took the leash off his neck I saw that his chin was purple and he wasn't breathing and I was so afraid that he was dead.

I lifted him up and carried him off the play structure and laid him on the grass. I was now screaming for Andrew. Mickey still wasn't breathing and I couldn't find a pulse. Andrew ran towards me and I screamed for him to call 911. He ran back into the house and I began chest compressions. I didn't have to do them for very long, maybe 30 seconds when he started breathing again. It wasn't normal breathing however, it was a kind of gasping, sporadic breathing.

By this time, Andrew was back with 911 on the phone and he started relaying questions to me. I grabbed the phone from him so I could answer them directly. I looked up and noticed that two people were walking across our lawn. It was our neighbors, Chris and Cindy. I hadn't known it before but Cindy is a nurse. She helped me answer the 911 dispatchers questions and we told them about his weird breathing and that he wasn't responsive and his eyes were rolled up in the back of his head.

Waiting for the paramedics was awful. We live a bit south of town and because of the way the wind was blowing, we could hear them long before they arrived. I was so afraid that he would stop breathing before they got to us. When they arrived, I told them what happened and they started to cut off his clothes and get him ready to transport. They told me that he was going to be taken by Life Flight to OHSU and that I couldn't ride with him.

My neighbor, Cindy, drove me out to the air strip across the street from us where Life Flight would be landing as the paramedics said that the Life Flight crew might have some questions for me. After they landed the crew didn't get Mickey from the ambulance right away and I found out later that it was because they were intubating him so they could help him breath.

My mom had arrived to take Audrey and Andrew and I went back to the house with Cindy. She told us to pack some clothes and toiletries and she would drive us to OHSU. When we got there I ran straight to the ER admitting and was told that a social worker would be coming for us. She took us into the Pediatric ICU's waiting room and the on call doctor came to talk to us. He was very straight forward and told us that at this moment every outcome for Mickey was still on the table. He told us that Mickey was posturing which is movements that are a sign of a major brain injury. He wanted to chill Mickey to help prevent any more damage to Mickey's brain. I had actually read about this before and was so glad he had suggested it.

After a while in the waiting room, we were taken back to see Mickey. It was so distressing to see him. I've kind of blocked a lot of it from my mind. He was moving around because they were chilling him and a lot of it looked like posturing and a lot of it looked like he was trying to warm up and to get the tubes out of his mouth. We tried to calm him when he thrashed and to stay out of the way of the nurse and doctors as they tried to cool him.

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So, that's it for Wednesday. All this took place from about 7:00 am to midnight. I'll be back soon with the rest of the hospital stay and then some thoughts on the whole experience. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers during this whole thing. They have helped so much and we love you all!

Checking In

Just wanted to let you guys know I am still here. We had a near tragedy in our little family and we are working on recovering. I'll share it with you when we get more settled in and promise to warn you ahead of time so you don't have to read it if you don't want to. It was very scary and I don't want to upset anyone.

We are all okay just shaken and tired out. I'll be back soon.

My New Scrap System!

Sometimes I've had the problem where I sit down to scrap for a couple of hours or even just 30 minutes and I struggle to come up with something to scrap about. Or, I scrap a layout that I love and in order to finish in the time I have, I force the journaling. These wasted scrap sessions (nap times!) and layouts that didn't sound like me have always frustrated me.

So, the other day when I sat down to scrap and found myself aimlessly pushing photos around, I decided to do something about it! I've always loved the layouts that I've made that I've thought about for a bit ahead of time. Or the ones that I jot down a sketch or notes for in a burst of inspiration. But, spending a day or two thinking about a layout isn't a very good way to get lots done. ;) And, those notes get lost!

Here's what I came up with. I took one of the 12x12 Modern albums from American Crafts and filled it with a bunch of the divided page protectors that hold 4x6 albums. I left the full size 12x12 protectors in the back.

I also grabbed a 4x6 photo album that I'd picked up at the Dollar Store.

Nothing special just a one up album I'd grabbed to alter at some point.

Then, I made them pretty! So fun! The little words under the house say "lives here". The mini album says "scrap on the go". (I used my Dixie Pieces May kit because I adore the colors!)

Then came the work. I grabbed a stack of photos and sorted them into groups. Some of the groups consist of only one photo and others almost a dozen. These may get made into more than one layout. Then, each group goes into it's own section. I try to keep a photo that's really representative of the group both topic and color wise on top.

After that, I pulled out each group, one at a time, laid them out in front of me as if I were going to scrap them right away. But, instead of getting down to business, I grabbed a 3x5 card and wrote down a title or two, some journaling and any other info (like product lines I want to use) on the lined side. If I have any ideas about the design, they go on the back, unlined side. Then I just tucked them back in their slot with the info card at the back.

I just stashed the unused 3x5 cards in one of the slots, too. I may add a pocket for them and a pen to the inside front cover.

The full size 12x12 pages are for when I take this to crops with me, I can just stash the completed layouts in them until I get home! I'm also thinking of creating a section for just ideas sketched onto the 3x5 cards. I chose 3x5 cards because I can get them for soooooo cheap! I have a bunch in my scrap room, by the computer and in my night stand and they are where I scratch down all my ideas. (Seriously, don't zoom in on the cards. My handwriting is atrocious when I'm trying to get ideas down on paper!)

The little mini album is for the same sort of thing except it's alot more portable. I can grab it (with the blank 3x5's already in there), a pack of photos from Costco, a pen (I may have to attach one to the album) and I can "scrap" while I'm waiting to pick up Mickey from school or when Andrew, the kids and I take a road trip. I'm thinking this will get a ton of use in a few years once the kids get into sports and stuff.

Now, whenever I have some time to scrap, I can just grab my Inspiration binder and flip through until I find photos that make me want to scrap or ones that go with the products I'm trying to use. Pull them out and all the ideas are right there with the photos.

I'm so excited about my new system and I hope you all like it and it gives you some ideas, too!

Dixie Pieces May Kit---Sticks & Stones!!!

I sighed such a happy sigh when I got this kit. Greens and blues and browns mixed with woodgrain!!!
I easily made three layouts. (Love those wood tags!)


I was so proud of that little campfire, hee!!!

The colors in this one just make me feel so relaxed and content. :)

A card with the woodgrain transparency. Perfect for guys!

I also made a bookmark with the transparency. I actually really need one. And, more importantly, I needed one that would stand up to the kiddos. This bad boy is way more durable than any cardstock one. It's punny, too!

Finally, I also decorated this binder and 1-up photo album. I'll tell you what they are for later. I'm super proud of what I came up with! :)

Anyway, that's the May kit. If you love it like I do, hop on over to Dixie Pieces and snag one!