Tuesday, May 8, 2012

One Year Later

A year ago Friday, our world stood still.  A year ago Friday, we faced one of the worst trials of our lives.  A year ago Friday, though we didn't yet know it, everything came together for a miracle to occur. 

Here's a layout I made for an online crop I participated in this weekend.  It's actually the first time I've scrapped my feelings about the fear I felt during Mickey's accident.  I'm so glad I was able to do this, it was very therapeutic for me.

 I really liked the paper I used because it's linear feel really echos the sterile/mechanical feel of the hospital.  I kept the whole layout very clean except for the grey background border, I distressed it to echo the feeling that we were unable to keep it all together and things were unraveling at the edges for us.
 These three tags have some hidden journaling.  It's not quite finished but it's getting there and feels good to get my fears down on paper.
 My favorite part is the tone on tone section of the title.  It kind of emphasizes how all these negative feelings were surrounding us at all times, a part of the background of our experience.
I'm sorry I've been a little MIA on my blog lately but the approach of his anniversary has been a bit harder on me than I expected. I knew the day itself would be hard but I didn't realize just how on edge I'd be the month leading up to it. Also, we found out in February that one of the male nurses who was working in the PICU during Mickey's stay was arrested for child pornography.  While we don't think he was alone with Mickey (although he is one of the nurses who took Mickey for his MRI and that just kills me) the fact that that monster was anywhere near my child during his most vulnerable time is distressing beyond words.  I wound up back in therapy for it and thankfully it helped. 

I'm feeling much more at ease now and I'm happy to report there will be a bit more activity on my blog in the weeks to come.  I joined in the crop at My Scrapbook Nook this weekend and was able to finish all 17 challenges!  Yep, 17!  I've got 12 more layouts and four cards to share.  :)

See you soon!

2 comments:

Samantha said...

Oh heavens! Poor little guy. I'm so glad you found peace in telling your story. I'm happy he's good to go now :) You're a strong lady and a good mama!!

Alex said...

Oh, Erica :( Every time I read about this horrible nightmare you and your family went through, my heart cries for you. Can't even imagine your fear. I am so grateful for his recovery!

I am glad you played along with us at the Nook. Love seeing your work!

Take care my dear friend.